Stupidity or Lonely?

I can't stop crying

Stupid anime! Bokura Ga Ita took too much emotion out of me

and I, being the stubborn person here can't move on..listening to the OSTs while tears rolling down on my cheeks

I do wonder, why am I so sad? So upset?

I do think it's the loneliness or maybe the story mirrored too much of my love life even though it was long time ago..
and I mean it..a very very long time ago

I do think now, I need someone
Out of stupidity for shooed someone away last time
Now I know, I'm so lonely

I need someone..
who love me for me, regardless of me being fat, unpretty
who will lend his ears to listen to my problems and hug me when I cry because of it
whom I can rest my head on his lap to nap
whom I can hug from behind
who will give me a surprise kiss
who will grab my hand and walk together
who will pull me towards his chest, hug me and comfort me and whisper softly that he loves me
who will get jealous if there are somebody else after me
who will act childishly to get my attention and I can fight him over that or maybe scold him 'Stupid! I do love you'
argh~ there are so many things I need

Will I ever find one?
I don't know....





Honestly..I really don't know



Haru~